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Scars
04:43
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I had a friend, he used to say
he's waiting for a better day
He watched the clock but in dismay
he saw his time just slip away
He never thought he'd live to tell
He was in a living hell
Well, I'll show you mine
if you will show me yours
I'm not talking dirty minds
I mean your scars
The ones you keep from healing
The kind that keep on bleeding
All the secrets you’ve been keeping
from the start
Let me see your scars
Well
Once upon another life
I was like that friend of mine
I couldn’t see through the haze
or past the nose on my face
I played the part, I towed the line
It broke my heart and blew my mind
Said I’ll show you mine
if you show me yours
So let down your guard
and show me all your scars
All those lies you keep believing
All the signs you’re just not seeing
Cuz they’re hanging from the ceiling
of your heart
Let me see your scars
Say goodbye to a life of regretting
The times, yeah the ones that you won’t be forgetting
Applies to a life you’re reflecting
They shook you till you wanted to give up
They took almost everything that you’re made of
And look now you’re the one that they’re afraid of
Let me see your scars
I can hear my mother say
“Go break the rules and seize the day”
“Stop living in yesterday,” and
“Hey, why are the cute ones always gay?”
“You’ve come so far and embraced your past,
You’re meant to be, and your built to last.”
Well I never thought I’d ever get this far
And make my life worth living with the scars
The kind that no one’s seein’
Between the lines of reason
Don’t hide behind the beauty that you are
Even Galileo thanked his lucky stars
Be proud of where you’re from
Be proud of who you are
and all your scars
All your scars.
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2. |
Hearsay!
04:10
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I’m not the fool you thought I would be
Put on my boots
Pulled up my roots
Bit through my leash and set myself free
Those ain’t my rules
I’m not confused
Whatever they say about me
All their sticks and stones
Whatever they say about me
Is never what the mirror shows
I’m not the tool they want you to see
They’re over there
Pretending to care
They make a mess and you clean it for free
They shake their fists
& kids slit their wrists
So whatever they say about me
All that shit they throw
Whatever they say about me
Is never what the future holds
Why
You tryin to give me grief
I’m just doing what they told me
And tellin you my story
If I’m
swaying your belief
Meet me out the side door
We’ll take back the dreams they sold you for
You say, I say
They say, we say
Everybody else say
You say, I say
They say, we say
Everything is hearsay
Watch out for who you
choose to believe
Sometimes a truce
Is just a noose
Whatever they say about me
Still gunna give ‘em hell
Whatever they say about me
Its only cuz they hate themselves
Why you gettin in my face
Sent a letter to my daddy
and It made him kinda happy
So I’m here to put you in your place
It true that I sold my soul
To peace and love
and rock & roll
So
you say I say
They say we say
Everybody else say
You say I say
They say we say
Everything is hearsay
Whatever they say about me
Everything is hearsay
Whatever they say about me
Everything is hearsay
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Pardon this interruption
Of your favorite production
This might be breaking news
The world really isn’t ending
But I just can’t keep pretending
This is what I would choose
And if this had only been a test
Then it would be easier to rest
Cuz I don’t want to forgive you
I just wanna forget
That I ever knew you
Or that we ever met
I’m going to take an eraser
And make sure
This never ever happens again
Well this game is over
Baby this is the end
Do I give my gratitude
For all this solitude
Just to make it easier for you
But I object, and reject,
The way that you broke me and cleaned up the mess
Was it your consolation
To leave me in isolation
I’m glad you got this off your chest
And who’s that underneath your desk
And I don’t want to forgive you
I just wanna forget
That I ever knew you
Or that we ever met
I’m going to take an eraser
And make sure
This never ever happens again
Well this game is over
Baby this is the end
I’m aching now
And breaking down
And finding out
You’re everything I’m not
I almost drowned
I'm learning how
To hold my ground
Cuz it’s everything I got
I don’t want to forgive you
I just wanna forget
That I ever knew you
Or that we ever met
I’m going to take an eraser
And make sure
This never ever happens again
Well this game is over
Baby this is the end
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4. |
American Nightmare
03:13
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I’ve taken all my medication
Cuz I’m not feeling very well
And if it’s any indication
I’m tired of living in this hell
Hello hello
Is there anybody out there?
I keep on filling this prescription
I keep on buying what they sell
Cuz I’m not fitting their description
Made me promise not to tell
Hello hello
Is there anybody out there?
Wake me up
From this American Nightmare
In a power position
They got us conditioned
With social feeds and ammunition
Scream all you want
Cuz there’s nobody listening
They control your motivation
Intimidate you in disguise
With an open invitation
Using fear to keep you blind
Hello hello
Is there anybody out there?
They’ll tell you that I’m toxic
That I’m poisoning your mind
But the freedom is contagious
Keep the shackles as a prize
Hello hello
Is there anybody out there?
Wake me up
From this American Nightmare
In a power position
They got us conditioned
With guns and God and ammunition
Pray all you want
Cuz there’s nobody listening
Wake me up from this American Nightmare
Wake me up from this American Nightmare
Hello hello is there anybody out there?
Wake me up from this American Nightmare
Hello hello is there anybody out there?
Wake me up from this American Nightmare
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Tell me what went wrong
I’ve been waiting far too long
Now the vultures start to feed
On the corner where you left me
Choking on your secrets
And cutting all my ties
To be the best you ever had
And nothing you despise
You were everything I wanted
Now I’m back to where I started
Embrace me
Replace me
Erase me
Embrace me
Replace me
Erase me
Next time I’ll be
Better than you left me
I was patient in your silence
That Hope was still alive
Is this really for the best
Or was this really just a lie
I gave you all the best of me
Now no one wants the rest of me
Embrace me
Replace me
Erase me
Embrace me
Replace me
Erase me
U took the memory
You took my sanity
Is this the end of me?
Are you my enemy?
Don't say we'll still be friends
That's not what I intended
Said we’d grow old together
That won’t happen
Now, or ever ... never.
Embrace me
Replace me
Erase me
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6. |
Underneath My Skin
04:08
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Guess that’s all
It’s over now
The dust has settled
On the ground
War is over
Thought we were fine
Thought we made it through
The worst of times
You’re always on my mind
I close my eyes and count to 10
Breathing out and breathing in
Letting go of what we’ve been
Then I see your face again
I’m not ok. I can’t pretend
It hurts too much to be your friend
Can’t go back to where we’ve been
Get out from underneath my skin
No more secrets
No more lies
No more devils
In disguise
Hearts can change
That's not a crime
But I can’t feel
What’s left of mine
When you’re always on my mind
I close my eyes and count to 10
Breathing out and breathing in
Letting go of what we’ve been
Then I see your face again
I’m not ok. I can’t pretend
It hurts too much to be your friend
Can’t go back to where we’ve been
Get out from underneath my skin
I wish you’d stop behaving
Like its my heart that you were saving
You spark the kindling of desire
I keep on walking through the fire
Well you never went the distance
Took the path of least resistance
Kept on sending me a message
On a sword with double edges
Was I simply just an option
Just to satisfy your conscience
Oh, you stole that silver lining
I was hoping I’d be finding
I close my eyes and count to 10
Breathing out and breathing in
Can't go back to where we've been
I'm letting go..
Get out from underneath my skin
Don't wanna see your face again
I'm letting go of what we've been
Get out, get out, get out
from underneath my skin
Get out, get out, get out
from underneath my skin
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7. |
I'm Already Down
03:37
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I had a dream
I had the best dream of my life
And now I'm waking
I gave my heart
I gave my heart to someone else
And now its breaking
Even with luck
On my side
No matter how many times I've tried
I end up losing
Every time
I'm already down
There's nowhere else to go but up
The scales are tipping now
And I'm already down
I made a wish
I made a wish upon a star
And now its falling
I try to be nice
I gave my number to a troll
And now he's calling
When I want
To impress
All you see is one hot mess
I end up getting
More obsessed
I'm already down
There's nowhere else to go but up
The scales are tipping now
And I'm already down
Well, there used to be significance
Between fate and coincidence
There's not much of a difference
It all ends the same
If abandoning the ignorance
And praying for deliverance
With well intended innocence
Did nothing to change
Tell me
Who's to blame
In this
Messed up game
Cuz I'm already down
There's nowhere else to go but up
The scales are tipping now
And I'm already down
There's nowhere else to go but up
The scales are tipping now
And I'm already down
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8. |
My Drug
03:47
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Boring
I’ve heard this story
Does nothing for me
Takes something more
To get me on board
You don’t have think
tastes just like candy
Mix it with a drink
Veuve Clicquot & Brandy
Keep coming back
always ends badly
Can’t get enough
Love is my drug
Covered in sweat
Visibly shaken
Hurtin for more
And my reputation
Dare didn’t work
Sorry Ms Reagan
I’m high as fuck
Love is my drug
My shortcut up to heaven
Won’t slow me down
Love is my drug
My shortcut up to heaven
Don’t turn around
Love is my drug
Packing the ice
In mid-September
It's a beautiful Vice
When we’re together
Speed down the street
In lipstick and leather
I like it rough
Love is my drug
My shortcut up to heaven
Won’t slow me down
Love is my drug
My shortcut up to heaven
Don’t turn around
Love is my drug
I’m not addicted
Or afflicted, I feel fine
I’m unrestricted
I can quit it anytime
Just as predicted
Contradicted my own mind
But if I admit it
I’m committed of my crime
My shortcut up to heaven
Won’t slow me down
Love is my drug
My shortcut up to heaven
Don’t turn around
Love is my drug
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9. |
Waiting For Love
03:30
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The truth of the matter
No matter how long
been chasing disaster
Its time that I moved on
For the next best mistake for my heart to make
Was last night the last time
Or the time before last
I really don’t remember
Where I was going so fast
Or who’s the next stop on the way
Well I’m leaving all the madness behind me
The danger it might come back to bite me
Stop waiting
Waiting for love to find me
Love will find me
Its easy to say but its harder to do
To make a clean break
And still be shatterproof
How many times can I walk away
Well I’m leaving all the madness behind me
The danger it might come back to bite me
Stop waiting
Waiting for love to find me
Love will find me
I don’t care how far I can run
If I can’t see the end and there's no end in sight
I can’t sit and stare at the sun
And expect in the end that it won’t burn my eyes
I'll find my way back in the dark
and hear all the cries in the night:
"Will somebody somewhere
won’t somebody turn on a light?"
While I’m living in the future
I’m tripping in the past
In my review mirror
You stopped me in my tracks
Hey, where have you been all my life?
Well I’m leaving all the madness behind me
The danger it just stares on despite me
Stop waiting
Waiting for love
She's waiting
He's waiting for love
We're all waiting
I'll stop waiting for love
to find me
Love will find me
Love will find me
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10. |
Survivors (Orchestral)
03:29
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My bags are packed I'm on my way
Searching for a new start
Forget about the words they say
Done tearing me apart
Its time to find my wings and something to believe in
See what tomorrow brings
When the sun is shining in your eyes
And the stars are falling from the skies
Soar higher, we're survivors
All I ever want, the air I need
Here I feel alive, I'm breaking free
Soar higher, we're survivors
Out on the edge I crash and fall
And it only makes me stronger
Have no regrets I'm standing tall
I won't take it any longer
My new life has begun and from this moment on
I won't hide who I've become
When the sun is shining in your eyes
And the stars are falling from the skies
Soar higher, we're survivors
All I ever want, the air I need
Here I feel alive, I'm breaking free
Soar higher, we're survivors
With no limits, and no boundaries
You're indestructible
This is your moment, enjoy the ride
You're learning to fly
You're learning to fly
All I ever want, and all I ever need
I feel alive, and I'm breaking free
We're survivors
We're survivors
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Justin Utley New York, New York
Justin Utley was a featured performer at the 2002 Winter Olympics and has since been touring festivals & concerts worldwide,
sharing stages with notable acts like Dan Reynolds of Imagine Dragons, Margaret Cho, Tegan & Sara, & Icona Pop.
He is a four time OUTMusic Award nominee by the LGBT Academy of Recording Arts, winning Best Country Song of the Year for his single “Stand For Something”.
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